Today will go down in the history of obscure/wonderful things my mother has told me. We were going through my newly purchased underwear and I was remarking how "sexy" they looked, when all the sudden she chimed in these unforgettable words:
"Kelsey, keep it in your pants, skirts, or whatever".
I love my mother because she is just herself, and she never misses a beat.
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
re-mix.
Today I woke up and came downstairs only to find both parents sitting across from each other, using their computers. I took a second glance and realized that my bewilderment stemmed from an opposite scene far from what I was used to seeing: I expected me, the young adolescent, to be slaving away on my computer while they read this morning's paper. But no, they weren't. Instead, they were both typing to friends, which brings up a new idea I had. While I was sitting across from them dumbfounded, I realized that I should count the number of mothers who now use facebook. The numbers would astonish me.
So with all of this processing, I am left to conclude that my mom and dad are efficient in technology, and that my mom has a larger network than I do.And most importantly, I need to bring my computer next time to fit in.
So with all of this processing, I am left to conclude that my mom and dad are efficient in technology, and that my mom has a larger network than I do.And most importantly, I need to bring my computer next time to fit in.
Monday, August 9, 2010
Sunday, August 8, 2010
1901.
I decided to title this blog after the phoenix song I am listening to while writing my post. And after listening to the lyrics, I couldn't agree more that this song most appropriately documents my life.
Alright, so last post was about wonderful Blue Moon, and this post will be about____ (Ugh, the Shins just came on. Hold on. It is hard to think with that sound in my ears. Forgive me all the Shin-lovers,their sound just doesn't do it for me.) As a side note, I just discovered Pandora. The jury is still out...
I suppose this blog has taken a random approach, and because Radiohead is now playing, I will get the grove on for this post. As of now, I am in the in-between stage of leaving Washington and leaving my family. Now, at twenty-one, I would love to admit this is something I am ready to do, which I am, but there is hesitancy. I realize that the minute I jump on that plane I am going into a year where there are some certainties, and then not some certainty. I know that when I get back I will be changing some things, meaning, I will be looking for a new place to live. I have some options; although, it is hard when you have too many. I am also going to be in my last year of school, which is hard to swallow. I have attended school since I was three. And last but not least, well, I can save that one. But at last the time is near, which is why I would love to highlight some incredible things I have done/learned/accomplished this summer:
1. learned: I am still a terrible person to keep in touch with.
2: I cannot make fettuccine Alfredo, but I can make many other delightful Italian dishes.
3. I can make mean scrambled eggs with cheese (this beats Waffle House's hash browns with the works)
4: I have missed my mom doing my laundry, but I need to buy a detergent that doesn't remove color.
5: I still have a ways to go on budgeting.
6: I can make any old man smile by telling him I have fresh coffee with some
alcohol.
7: Online classes are a pain, and I still procrastinate (that may never change).
8: I enjoy people more than I enjoy silence most days.
9: My music tastes are about as picky as my childhood eating habits. I seem to be more open to things these days.
10: Lady Gaga is my new muse for Halloween.
11: I tend to sing in restaurants, almost like Turrets.
Accomplished:
1. I hit my first deer.
2. I made more money than I have ever spent.
3. I made an art and craft that actually looked half-decent.
4. I gained more weight than I have in years.
5. I can do a long-distance relationship over a mobile phone.
6. I can drive a car without hitting the gas, while lodged on top of the sun roof.
7. My friends and I made special fruit watching youtube videos.
8. My hair is about 5 shades lighter.
9. I withstood one of the most uncomfortable medical examinations possible.
10. My boyfriend and I flew, and drove all over the world in one month.
11. I added my professor on facebook.
12. I have read over 10 books.
13. I can out-eat my dad, once again.
I am proud to say that this summer has been beautiful in the ups and the downs.
My only regret is that I did not experience some of this beauty sooner.
So today I sign off with Vampire Weekend.
Alright, so last post was about wonderful Blue Moon, and this post will be about____ (Ugh, the Shins just came on. Hold on. It is hard to think with that sound in my ears. Forgive me all the Shin-lovers,their sound just doesn't do it for me.) As a side note, I just discovered Pandora. The jury is still out...
I suppose this blog has taken a random approach, and because Radiohead is now playing, I will get the grove on for this post. As of now, I am in the in-between stage of leaving Washington and leaving my family. Now, at twenty-one, I would love to admit this is something I am ready to do, which I am, but there is hesitancy. I realize that the minute I jump on that plane I am going into a year where there are some certainties, and then not some certainty. I know that when I get back I will be changing some things, meaning, I will be looking for a new place to live. I have some options; although, it is hard when you have too many. I am also going to be in my last year of school, which is hard to swallow. I have attended school since I was three. And last but not least, well, I can save that one. But at last the time is near, which is why I would love to highlight some incredible things I have done/learned/accomplished this summer:
1. learned: I am still a terrible person to keep in touch with.
2: I cannot make fettuccine Alfredo, but I can make many other delightful Italian dishes.
3. I can make mean scrambled eggs with cheese (this beats Waffle House's hash browns with the works)
4: I have missed my mom doing my laundry, but I need to buy a detergent that doesn't remove color.
5: I still have a ways to go on budgeting.
6: I can make any old man smile by telling him I have fresh coffee with some
alcohol.
7: Online classes are a pain, and I still procrastinate (that may never change).
8: I enjoy people more than I enjoy silence most days.
9: My music tastes are about as picky as my childhood eating habits. I seem to be more open to things these days.
10: Lady Gaga is my new muse for Halloween.
11: I tend to sing in restaurants, almost like Turrets.
Accomplished:
1. I hit my first deer.
2. I made more money than I have ever spent.
3. I made an art and craft that actually looked half-decent.
4. I gained more weight than I have in years.
5. I can do a long-distance relationship over a mobile phone.
6. I can drive a car without hitting the gas, while lodged on top of the sun roof.
7. My friends and I made special fruit watching youtube videos.
8. My hair is about 5 shades lighter.
9. I withstood one of the most uncomfortable medical examinations possible.
10. My boyfriend and I flew, and drove all over the world in one month.
11. I added my professor on facebook.
12. I have read over 10 books.
13. I can out-eat my dad, once again.
I am proud to say that this summer has been beautiful in the ups and the downs.
My only regret is that I did not experience some of this beauty sooner.
So today I sign off with Vampire Weekend.
Saturday, July 10, 2010
true blue.
Today I just simply wanted to drink Blue Moon when I came home from work. The beverage sounded so wonderful and tasteful.
Today I am really thankful for great beer.
Today I am really thankful for great beer.
Thursday, July 1, 2010
An evolution.
Today's post is more of a vulnerable-transparent post. Instead of having some epiphany about how my life has to be, I am proposing something else in my writing: today I am suggesting that human life is fragile. And not just in a delicate sense of the world is ending "fragile"- I am talking about the type of fragile that begs each individual to examine their approach to one another, including my own.
It has come to my attention that we are fragile: We are evolving into stages of our lives that require more attention than the last. If you are an adolescent, then you need support transitioning from your twenties to your thirties, so forth. And if you are younger than you are getting ready to make life decisions that impact the next four years. All of these can make you fragile, yet not all of these matter on the smaller scales, the daily things. After all, it is always the little things we are taught that make our lives what they are. Just the other day I realized how fragile I am, and how fragile my emotions are. For the first time I experienced an immense fear that paralyzed me from becoming confident in myself, then I became inept to believe in myself. That negativity drove me to make decisions that harmed my wellness.
I don't consider myself a religious person, but I do have conviction of faith and meditation. Both strengths allow me moments of vulnerability that make me see a light in the end of the tunnel where there is joy, a contentment. Over the last few months I have been restless, fearful that there is no light at times. But, I am constantly reminded through tears and through rough patches that there is a light. In one of the most powerful short stories Tolstoy wrote, The Death of Ivan Illych, Ivan dialogues about how there is light amidst his suffering. I am by no means suffering, but I have been unaware of my fragility. And I have been unaware that others are fragile as well.
I need to hold back my fears and let my love compensate for my shortcomings. A great man once said that "The fear of love is the beginning of wisdom, and perfect loves drives out fear". I write these things because even in our most scathing times, we are still fragile. I am fragile. And then I realize the wisdom of peace.
I pray you do too.
It has come to my attention that we are fragile: We are evolving into stages of our lives that require more attention than the last. If you are an adolescent, then you need support transitioning from your twenties to your thirties, so forth. And if you are younger than you are getting ready to make life decisions that impact the next four years. All of these can make you fragile, yet not all of these matter on the smaller scales, the daily things. After all, it is always the little things we are taught that make our lives what they are. Just the other day I realized how fragile I am, and how fragile my emotions are. For the first time I experienced an immense fear that paralyzed me from becoming confident in myself, then I became inept to believe in myself. That negativity drove me to make decisions that harmed my wellness.
I don't consider myself a religious person, but I do have conviction of faith and meditation. Both strengths allow me moments of vulnerability that make me see a light in the end of the tunnel where there is joy, a contentment. Over the last few months I have been restless, fearful that there is no light at times. But, I am constantly reminded through tears and through rough patches that there is a light. In one of the most powerful short stories Tolstoy wrote, The Death of Ivan Illych, Ivan dialogues about how there is light amidst his suffering. I am by no means suffering, but I have been unaware of my fragility. And I have been unaware that others are fragile as well.
I need to hold back my fears and let my love compensate for my shortcomings. A great man once said that "The fear of love is the beginning of wisdom, and perfect loves drives out fear". I write these things because even in our most scathing times, we are still fragile. I am fragile. And then I realize the wisdom of peace.
I pray you do too.
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